This is such a special and reflective time of the year for Bart and I. This is when we were preparing to become parents 20 years ago. All my life I knew that my roll on this earth would be to become a Wife and a Mother. I never had any doubt and I couldn't wait to have that first baby once Bart and I were married. I wanted so much to have a Son first. It just seemed to me that if I had a Son as the oldest, that he could be a strong example and strength to his siblings and that's exactly what he is,
plus I knew how much Bart wanted a Son!
When I see the Sun start to shift and I feel the cool of the evenings, it takes me right back to that special moment in time. It's ironic that we were living here on the Ranch then and we have come full circle and are living here again. I remember waking up early in the mornings with Bart and he would build me a little fire so I could warm my big belly up. We would lay in bed and watch my belly move like I had cats in there or something, okay we were bored and didn't have T.V.
We LOVED our baby boy so much. Every thing he did was documented with pictures and video. His first real words besides daddy and mama, was "Har pray" hair spray. Why you ask? Because he was mocking his daddy. Bart said it to me and Landon had to say it too.
Bart couldn't wait for his baby boy to grow up. He wanted a buddy so much and that is what Landon was, his little buddy. Bart took him EVERYWHERE!! He would take him snowmobiling with a diaper bag in tow.
He would even change him. Bart couldn't wait for the first "real" father-son camp out. He spent many cold mornings bugling for Elk, Landon could do it way better than his Dad and Grandpa Bill at age 3. Sometimes I would get nervous sending my little guy out but he had a daddy that took good care of him. Landon had so many mountain moments with his dad. That's where he grew up, at the side of his dad.
It is so surprising to me as the moments flew by; Baptism, Receiving the Priesthood, Passing the Sacrament then Blessing it for the first time, that was a hard one for this mom. Landon left out one word and had to say the Sacrament prayer over and over again. I wanted to absolutely cry for him. But he didn't give up and his Bishop knelt beside him and helped him. I'm sure those moments are what help build his character.
Landon was born to be a Missionary. We said that, the moment he was born! "We have a little Missionary" We bought him a suit and tie when he was little and I found a little "Future Missionary" tag. We were so proud of him. I just didn't realize how hard that moment would be to send him off. My heart was in my throat for days with the anticipation of the "Airport Goodbye". I know that Heavenly Father blesses a Mother at that time. He must or we would be running down the terminal after them bawling our eyes out!
He was so adored by his grandma's and aunt's. Kami loved all the hair he had so she had to dress him up as a little girl, I do say, he made a darling little girl, with his long eye lashes and curly hair.
He was such a good little boy. He was full of mischief but he was always so happy. He could be a rotten tease but that little grin was hard to get mad at. I would get mad at him and it didn't seem to fase him.
We just adored our first baby boy and he made us better people. He was the "trial child" We had to learn a lot about being a parents and made many mistakes along the way. I hope he will forgive us for the things we did wrong and build on the things we did right. It's just amazing how fast this little guy grew into a MAN! When did that happen? Where was I at when it went by? I know the day will come when He will be a Husband and a Father, I know it will surprise me because I still can't believe that our "Little Missionary" is fulfilling that role. He has been a blessing and a joy. So this time of the year brings much melancholy to us, as parents. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL TIME OF THE YEAR!! So Happy
BIRTHDAY to
US, Landon, because it certainly was!